xx-mas coming [:

yessssss, tis just before xx-mas.
quite ex'cited actually.
never am, not for things like this,
but its not the presents i'm ex'cited
for. i didn't ask for anyone to get me
any. i'm ex'cited to see the faces on people
when they see presents, the faces
when they get told a joke, when
they crack a smile. seeing joy
spread across their faces.
thats what xx-mas is about right?
++ seeing your family+friends,
near the time. having a big
christmas dinnnnnnnnner'
yes boy!
well i'm well happy.
+ i'm going to start a new years resolution.
it's quite different.
but mine is going to be to
have a fresh start,
new lifffe.
yes iknow your thinking that
she's talking a load of crap.
but i'm actually certain
cos'ive had shit,+
i'm going to get rid of it with the new.
ahum.

my first post

my name's alice (:
+ i love music, art, topshop, french - sexy (;
my friends + family - although they can rather piss me off but otherwise.
yes, i like someone.
but doesn't it really make your emotions change?
thats how i feel, like one minute your really happy
+ you feel like your high + the next your depressed + sitting in a corner
listening to evanescence, i hate it
i wish we could stay the same happy, i used to when i felt single.

now i feel insecure, trapped.
i need a break, a laugh, a kitkat (:
they wouldn't work though.
nothing will.
i hate me, not my life.
just me in it, i think its stupid who ever made me.
yes my mum, she should've at lest thought about it.
same goes to my dad.
but the deed is done, + i'm alive + not well.
just save me from my place. xx

'guilt lies around me, from what i'm doing to you.
the tears fall from me as i face reality'